Beginnings…

I like new beginnings…the start of a new year, the first day of summer, back-to-school, Lent and even the Chinese New Year. They’re times to reinvent yourself. To start over. Try something new. Listen to your heart and soul. Kick a bad habit. Start a new one. In theory I could do this on any random day of my choosing but I need the prompt of the calendar to force me to start. I’m spiritual but not good at organized religion. I believe in horoscopes, crystals, the power of reiki, and numbers but I also believe in prayer and the … Read more…

four is the new black

You’ve seen the posts making their way around Facebook, mothers with four children are less stressed than those with three. Cue the attempts at one lost child for mothers of three around the world as they grasp at ways to reduce the stress of their daily lives. And so begins another set of mommy wars with the different camps arguing over the coveted title of “Most Stressed Mom.” But let me give you my two cents…this mother of four doesn’t have time to be stressed. Well, that’s not 100% true. There’s always time to worry about meaningless things but I … Read more…

I heart winter

I know what you’re going to say…I know I’m writing these words from the comfort of my home not having shoveled snow for hours. It was 53 degrees here today and I’m not dealing with snow pants, searching for matching mittens or snow boots that fit. But I miss snow. I’m currently obsessed with winter and I just saw this image on Pinterest and it made me want to pack my bag and drive up to New England only stopping to pick up a pair of snowshoes on the way. Maybe I just like roaring fires, turtlenecks, and fleece-lined boots … Read more…

Motherhood gives me whiplash

Justin and Ethan left for basketball practice and Alex was hunkered down doing homework so the girls and I decided to run to Costco to find the necessities we didn’t need. We were cold and bundled up in our hats and cozy coats. We blasted the heat and Taylor Swift to warm up our toes and our souls. My girls, always listening and trying to figure out the world, questioned some of the lyrics to Blank Space. Eva wanted to know if boys really only wanted love if it was torture. Scores of my own mistakes flashed through my head … Read more…

Moon chasing

I chased the moon last night. I was driving home from dance when I caught my first glimpse. It was on fire. It ripped my breath right out of my chest. When I got home I ran in and made the twins and Justin jump in the car for a better view. We drove through our neighborhood and down toward the river following it as it moved behind the trees. And I realized this is what I want from 2015…I want to chase the moon on cold winter nights wearing my cozy hat surrounded by the ones who make my … Read more…

Oh 2014…

Where did you go? I swear it was just June and I was celebrating having a summer off from packing lunches. I used to hear the clock ticking as each second passed while I sat in European History in tenth grade and now I blink and the whole day has disappeared. I watched Taylor Swift singing on New Year’s Eve and then counted down as the ball dropped at midnight. I know it’s 2015 but I’m not quite sure where 2014 went… But in this new year, I have ideas about what I want and what I want to do. … Read more…

Annie

To me, Annie’s not just a movie. I have so much of my childhood invested in those catchy tunes. I remember wearing my pink and white tank sundress and going to Broadway to see the play with my dad after a lunch at Tavern on the Green. I remember playing the record over and over and over again and then singing “Tomorrow” while I showered, rode my bike, and ran around the neighborhood. I remember seeing the movie and not liking it nearly as much as I liked the theatre production but still holding a soft spot for it. My … Read more…

Trying to capture moments

It’s that busy time of year. Who am I kidding? I say that all the time. June is the new December. Back-to-school shopping is more hectic than Christmas shopping. It’s all busy…or at least we make it busy. But during this time of year instead of running to and fro in my dreaded Honda Odyssey with my head filled with a mighty to do list, I try to be filled with intent and a little extra joy. Does it happen? Not always and sometimes it feels like not at all. But over the last few years, I’ve tried to shift … Read more…

Four years ago today…

Four years ago tonight, I said goodbye to my dad. I’d said goodbye to him many other times, like when he moved into his own house when I was in second grade and when he left New York for California while I was still in high school. Even though those felt like earth shattering moments, I really just said so long…farewell…I’ll see you soon. But as my aunt held the phone up to my dad’s ear for the last time four years ago, I said my final goodbye and it wasn’t eloquent. His box of journals and letters still sits … Read more…

Things I could do if I didn’t drink Starbucks

If I stick to my regular, every day venti iced nonfat chai, I will spend $1635.20 on Starbucks this year. More than likely I’ll end up back at Starbucks later in the day telling myself I deserve a reward in a less calorie laden form costing somewhere around $4. If I do that a third of the year, approximately 122 days, I’ll spend another $488 and that’s assuming I am not with a Farley child who may be clamoring for a treat. Now I’ve raised my Starbucks yearly total to $2123.20. I guarantee(but I’m not checking) that it’s greater than … Read more…